Free Bird

School finally had the last of me. I graduated from hell school. Only thing to do now is lose 10 kg and wait for my National Exams result. Hope everything will be alright. Not looking forward to university. Not looking forward to anything. Just a free bird. Roaming, longing for nothing... for everything. 



New Shoes

Rabbit ears with my new silver Winklepickers :)


Haro! Haro!

So I went to Mall of Indonesia yeah? And I found this toy store yeah? It turns out to be a collector's toy store which is fucking awesome because I collect toys and when I was looking around, I found this baby and I fell in love with it. It's a Haro from Gundam Seed. I've always had this certain love for Haro's and this one is fucking huge as well compared to my other Haros so here it is, my new green Haro.



Looking back at my old posts,

I just realized I've been through shit. I mean, shit fuck shit. Not shit shit. It's like elephant shit but much much more fucked up.


Let's Take A Moment

And enjoy the simple things of life.

**Moment of silence**

Now back to the more unsimple things in life. For example, school, relationships, and BODY WEIGHT.


How does the obliging knight plate the miraculous quantum?


I like the thought of gambling with life,
and how death is one of the price you get.

I like the thought of cheating death,
and how the idea of life suddenly becomes more interesting.

I like the thought of the living dead,
and how the deadly living exists aswell.

I like the thought of death,
and how I like the thought of life.

Life is a game, death is a morbid adventure.



Exams are on the way, university applications going nowhere.

Might as well get drugged and die of overdose.


I Hate the Fact That

1. Vino uses the MCR Black Parade Jacket to a motherfucking COLDPLAY concert, thinking that it looks like their new look (He doesn't even use it on the MCR concert, hish)

2. All of the people I know gets to see Vino

3. People still think that Coldplay is a good band

4. Vino is in Singapore

5. I have a chance to go to Singapore because it's the fucking holidays, instead I'm stuck here in fucking Jakarta doing extra lessons for the exams.

6. I'm not enjoying life at all

7. I just realised that I'm a total failure and deserve to be burned alive


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Blog Post no. 49

What if you wake up in the morning and suddenly you find out that your genitals switched places with your nose?

Blog Post no. 48

How will a rain explode the concentrated mouse?


I Smell Pancreas

Alula is the Unicorn Princess
Alula will defeat the blood-sucking murdering Economics teacher: Tantisaurus
She is evil and must be banished
With the power of the Awesome UV (Unicorn Vagina) Light, Alula will defeat Tantisaurus and save the town of IPS from corruption and grief
Tantisaurus must die
Alula is a friend of the Unicorns


So I Caught the Red-Eye Disease

aka Penyakit Mata Merah

Muka tampak melankolis.



Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.


Blog Post no. 42




I can't wait to die


Monotone Girl Is Now jealous Girl

Bromance (Male Friends):

Not good.

Romance (Girlfriend):


Photos courtesy of Google <3



Let me count the ways how I love you
It's like that gentle wind you feel at dawn
It's like that first sun that hits the dew
It's like that cloud with a gold lining telling us softly
That it'll be a good day, a good day for us
Thank you, thank you, thank you

Let me count the ways how I miss you
It's like that oak tree in my childhood garden
It's like that first summer I spent in Egypt
It's like that warm evening you read to me
Both knowing deeply
That it's a good time, a good time for us
Thank you, thank you, thank you

Let me count the ways how I see you
It's like that lake in the mountain you heard about
It's like that autumn sky that stays so blue
It's like that air around me that holds me gently
Whispering strongly that you're always there, always for me
Thank you, thank you, thank you


Instructions For Use During A Psychedelic Session - First Bardo

O (name of voyager)
The time has come for you to seek new levels of reality.
Your ego and the (name) game are about to cease.
Your are about to be set face to face with the Clear Light
Your are about to experience it in its reality.
In the ego-free state, wherein all things are like the void and cloudless sky,
And the naked spotless intellect is like a transparent vacuum;
At this moment, know yourself and abide in that state.

O (name of voyager),
That which is called ego-death is coming to you.
This is now the hour of death and rebirth;
Take advantage of this temporary death to obtain the perfect state -
Concentrate on the unity of all living beings.
Hold onto the Clear Light.
Use it to attain understanding and love.

If you cannot maintain the bliss of illumination and if you are slipping back
into contact with the external world,
The hallucinations which you may now experience,
The visions and insights,
Will teach you much about yourself and the world.
The veil of routine perception will be torn from you eyes.
Remember the unity of all living things.
Remember the bliss of the Clear Light.
Let it guide you through the visions of this experience.
Let it guide you through your new life to come.
If you feel confused; call upon the memory of your friends and the power of
the person whom you most admire.

O (name),
Try to reach and keep the experience of the Clear Light.
The light is the life energy.
The endless flame of life.
An ever-changing surging turmoil of color may engulf your vision.
This is the ceaseless transformation of energy.
The life process.
Do not fear it.
Surrender to it.
Join it.
It is part of you.
You are part of it.
Remember also:
Beyond the restless flowing electricity of life is the ultimate reality -
The Void.
Your own awareness, not formed into anything possessing form or color,
is naturally void.
The Final Reality.
The All Good.
The All Peaceful.
The Light.
The Radiance.
The movement is the fire of life from which we all come.
Join it.
It is part of you.
Beyond the light of life is the peaceful silence of the void.
The quiet bliss beyond all transformations.
The Buddha smile.
The Void is not nothingness.
The Void is beginning and end itself.
Unobstructed; shining, thrilling, blissful.
Diamond consciousness.
The All-Good Buddha.
Your own consciousness, not formed into anything,
No thought, no vision, no color, is void.
The intellect shining and blissful and silent -
This is the state of perfect enlightenment.
Your own consciousness, shining, void and inseparable from the great body
of radiance, has no birth, nor death.
It is the immutable light which the Tibetans call Buddha Amitabha,
The awareness of the formless beginning.
Knowing this is enough.
Recognize the voidness of your own consciousness to be Buddhahood.
Keep this recognition and you will maintain the state of the divine mind
of the Buddha.


One thing you can't hide, is when you're crippled inside.


Spread your love like a fever.
Above us only sky.
There's sadness written on every corner.